Post Traumatic Love

I pour my heart out to you and you watch me drown in my own words,

Yet your self destructive apathy just drives me to surrender.

I don’t have any scars but my own

To comfort me when I’m alone

Helpless, caught in a hole

Can you just please fill my cup full?

I’m thirsty, I’m dry

From things I feel I will never have

I hold on, I clench

In this pitiful, relentless grasp

You kill me over and over

Someone else will kill again, I know

Yet I still hold on for drama

In my own selfish show.

“Your Leo sun is in the 8th house of Scorpio, so you have very strong opinions. and tend to bring up the ‘dirt’ so to say.. Scorpio tends to be just like a scorpion, if hurt- you strike back hard. If you don’t like someone, you probably really don’t like them.. But you are also sensitive with your moon in Pisces. This gives you a really dreamy side. You picture of reality may be over-thought at times since it’s in the third house, which is the house of Gemini. This gives you a spirit of curiosity as well. Your mind most likely dances with imagination when answers are not right in front of you. The other VERY interesting aspect is that you have three planets very close to eachother- your Venus, Mars, and Mercury are in Virgo. This brings the perfectionist to you, and perhaps some judgement. Virgo is very analytical, and particular. You believe things belong a certain way, in a particular mold. If they do not fit after consistent trial, you may reject it. These planets are also located in the ninth house of Sagittarius, so you may demand freedom in your activities. You are very go with the flow, and enjoy getting to know intriguing/ foreign people and places. Another thing with your mercury, it seems as thought your words and beliefs are very strong to you and that is project through the way you talk. This means you have the ability to push people to debate you and make them feel as though they need to stand up for themselves, or you can easily soothe hurt feelings and settle quarrels. You know how you were mentioning that you think logically, yet sometimes act or let your emotions get to you? Well it’s because your moon is opposed from your mercury. What you desire to communicate is under the opposite influence of what your emotional influence is..You are filled with intuition though- and believe that being true to yourself is one of the most important things when it comes to belief. You have an extremely creative mind, and pull insight from within yourself. You could be an artist or even a writer, since you have such a creative mind. Yet the Virgo gives you the ability to look into extreme detail- much more so than others without such an influence. When it comes to relationships, you tend to get quite attached to the emotional give and take. This means you will either create very close relationships and friendships, or not very close ones. You may not find many friends in the middle of that. The planet mars being in this Virgo aspect may mean that you are afraid of being wrong or making a mistake (since you beliefs do hold so much correlation with what you discuss), but try not to be too hard on yourself, since everyone does make mistakes. This influences brings a great strength, but also a warning to “pick your battles” with people. Overall, it seems as though you are a deep thinker who is determined in your own path. You do as you please, rather than listening to others when they tell you what to do. This is a positive influence, since you are a born leader and you tend to be correct in your intuitive assumptions. Some may be wary of following your ideals because they may not see where they are based from, but in the long run people will realize it is better to trust you and your intuitive ‘assumptions’. It seems as though you want the biggest and the best, and you want to succeed. With the standards you set for yourself, make sure that they truly help you develop a better quality of life. Because ideals are important to you, it is good to keep them in perspective and not let yourself become limited by them.”